I am not the Biggest Loser...

Ok...I Suck!!!

I have not blogged in about a month for one reason and one reason only...I have not dieted or exercised or lost any weight AT ALL. I really just have not been able to find that inner motivation. I have tried so many things to get me motivated. I joined a weight loss challenge. I watch The Biggest Loser on a regular basis. I got a weight loss buddy. I got lots of motivational books and workout videos. BUT NOTHING!!!!!!!

I don't get it. I usually start the day out alright but from noon on I just find myself pigging out. Maybe it is because I know that I am on a "DIET" that I feel the need to binge.

Also, because I am so overweight, unhealthy and out of shape I don't have the energy to get my butt up to exercise. It is a vicious circle.

Sheesh......I really need to find a way to get myself going on this.

Finally Started!!!

Ok, I finally started the diet. A few days late, I'll admit, but here I go. I weighed myself again to get a definitive starting point and ack...213.6 lbs...up again. NO MORE!!! I started doing Weight Watchers on Monday and am easing into the exercising. I went rollerblading with my husband on Monday morning and almost killed myself. This morning I used my Wii Fit for the first time. It analyzes your body weight and BMI and it told me I am Obese...how insulting...but true. I actually had a lot of fun using it. I now need to lose 73.6 pounds to reach my goal. It seems like a very long haul but I am choosing to take it nice and slow.

Starting Point

Ok...so I finally got up the courage to weigh myself this morning. I weighed in at 209.7 pounds. (under 210 thank you very much). Sheesh. I did not know that I weighed that much and it really gave me the kick in the pants that I need to get going. I actually have compiled all that I need to get started. I have all of The Biggest Loser work out DVDs and their success secrets book. I have my weight loss journal and all of my Weight Watchers books and points finders on the ready. I have a weight loss partner as well. My cousin and I both have the same goal of getting thin and healthy before we have babies so we have teamed up to encourage each other. Starting January 1st...(two days away)...I am on my way to becoming a thin, hot babe...just 69.7 pounds to go.........................

Thinking About Starting...

I know I am going to lose weight (positive thinking). I know what I am going to do to lose it. BUT...I'm not really ready to start yet. I am not sure what makes a person ready. Is it resolve?...Will?...Determination?...Support?...THERAPY?????

It is December 16th...everything in me wants to have started my weight loss YESTERDAY. However, in the back of my head I know that Christmas is next week and then New Year's and I am going to want to just eat and have fun. In all reality I could totally start NOW and just have a cheat day or two but I tend to be an ALL or NOTHING kind of girl.

I plan to start on the first of the year. My New Year's Resolution (if you will). I weight over 200 pounds (I'm guessing because I am afraid to actually weight myself) and I want to reach 140 at the end of my journey. That is 60 pounds! Ack!

I will keep you posted...